Two people touching lips, Hands on each other's hips, Nothing else in the world but one another

I have been in a constant state of change since I was young.  Right now is the first time I feel like I am where I'm supposed to be.  College is great, friends are incredible.  I have the world in front of me.  It's moments like these when I realize how much I have, but also how much I've lost.  It's the things you lose that are hardest to come to terms with.  Success is not nearly as life altering as the things that you lose.  I suppose it is all about perspective, and it's hard to change the way you see things when they effect you so heavily emotionally and mentally.  That's why I feel it's important to always keep looking foward because when you look back at everything, there is a sense of lose that is felt that just puts a cloud right in the way of your sunny day.  So I'm saying move outta my way cloud, because I'm going to have a great day!  I'll make damned sure of it!

i'm pretty upset this morning.  actually, i don't think upset is the right word, but i can't think of a better one right now.  it's so hard to go to sleep, but i know that i need it to be ready for the day and what night.  but waking up to my poor baby about to puke her brains out and the nightmares of my father really makes me feel, if possible, even more shitty then when i went to bed.  it's just very hard to death with the pain of losing your one and only daddy.  i don't know if i will ever be able to cope.

I am quite the happy kid right now.  I got my report card and it makes me pshcyed, even though i'm still pissed off about school (way diff. story!).  However!  I finally managed to get honors last quarter; only took me all year.  I also passed the year with 7 a's, 4 b's and one crappy c in math.  Not too shabby.  I must say that i'm quite happy to have 16 credits under my belt and a decent B+ gpa.  I'm obviously not the top of my class, but it's still not too bad. 

 

Now, if only my schedule next year wasn't crappy.  It isn't really, but i wish i'd gotten 3 points higher in math so i wouldn't have to take it again for the tech prep credit... bum... Ohs well.  Next year will still be good. 

 

Now all i have to worry about is packing for maine and calling the dmv to schedule my test!  woo hoo.  Gotta dash!

 

Cheers =)

woo hoo!  i got to see my babe today.  we went to the mall and i went into v.s.  LOVE!  it was pretty chill.  then i finished dog sitting, went babysitting, and came home and jumped in my pool.  SKILLZ!  i'm a happy kid right now.  anna made some great sandwiches for lunch... man i wish i had another right now.  i just took my hair out of my twirlies and i fricken cut my finger... who does that?  oh well.  i'm hungry so i'm bouncing! cheers...=) karen

It has been a very long time since I have been on here.  It's kind of neat to come back here and read my old entries.  It shows how much I have grown since then.  I'm older and happier for sure, and more in love than ever.  I currently have no job, but a pulled groin muscele and chondromalacia (runners knee).  Fun stuff.  My summer is so far pretty quiet with only the occasional babysitting and dogsitting.  It's all good though.  I am going to Maine on Wednesday and can't wait for the mini vacay.  I hope that Sam feels better; I feel bad that I haven't talked to her in a little while.  In other news, I cannot wait to see the Drum Corps On The Thames on July 22nd.  Should be quite fun.  Now, I am tired from bordom and think I will go pick up a good book.  Good day!

Karen